Tuesday, December 21, 2010

So sad....

The rollercoaster of the adoption process is never easy. Sometimes it hits you harder than others. Yesterday wasn't a good day. There was yet another paperwork mistake/delay whatever you want to call it and our Article 5 wasn't sent to the CCAA on schedule as we'd been told. This changes our time frame for when to expect our TA and eliminates all hopes of traveling in time for his birthday, and with the Chinese New Years getting close and the time the American Consulate is closing for New Year's, it's is making me nervous for getting our of town in January. I feel so sad, disappointed and tierd of delays. I know everyone means well when they say "it will all work out"...."he'll be home when he's suppose to be"...and "God is in charge" and believe me deep in my heart I REALLY know and believe all those things...but sometimes you just can't handle hearing it...you just want to be sad and angry and disappointed. I took a half mental health day yesterday and crawled into bed and pulled the covers over my head for awhile. I got the news at work and it was a tough day to keep it together and see all my patience when all I really wanted to do was cry.... It's 4am now...today I put on my "big girl panties" and move on...

I really shouldn't be this hard...

6 comments:

  1. I feel your pain, literally, as I got the same news yesterday, and also wrote about it on our blog. I'm also concerned now that there will be a TON of us trying to travel right after CNY and may get pushed back even farther. You would think, with so many less adoptions these days, they wouldn't have so much trouble staying on top of the process. Hang in there - we are almost THERE! Sending prayers your way, Kathy

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  2. I totally understand Myra. If you remember, Ty's paperwork was LOST at CCAA for 2 weeks while waiting for TA...or we could have traveled together! Before that it was 104 days for I800A, 4 months for LOA (because CCAA LOST our payment). (we locked Ty before LID, thinking we'd be LID in less than 2 months since we were only waiting on I800A...yeah right!) I know you don't want to hear "hang in there" because I didn't either. Since I know how you feel, I'm just going to say that you are loved by our Lord, no matter what you are feeling. Let Him wrap his arms around you and comfort you. And when you're ready, hug your kids at home a little tighter. I know how you feel...no words help, but just know I'm thinking of you and your son in China today.

    Praying for you!
    Jolene

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  3. I'm sad for you - and for Will to be away from his family even longer :( Sending you hugs and prayers.

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  4. Hugs :( We had a potential big problem with Piper's paperwork - for whatever reason China didn't include the piece of paper in paragraph form with the sentence stating they had tried to find her birth parent. We had a checklist form but it was missing that sentence. USCIS wouldn't approve our 800 without it. Our agency had to go back to the CCAA who went to the SWI and finally got the paper. Turned out we traveled when we should have originally - with you!!

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  5. Just keep on keepin' on-not much choice, right?

    Ruby

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  6. I am so sorry to hear this, Myra. Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you.

    Hugs,
    Daisy

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